why do we always have to learn things the hard way? especially the most important things in life. and most of the times, the lesson is learned by losing something… or someone.
the value of someone in our life is definitely measured - truly - by the time that we lost them. i know that now. maybe its because we have been so confident that we wont lose them, we were so self-assured that whatever might happen, they will always be there. or maybe we’ve been so used of them being around us that we tend to forget have much we really value these persons, how much we really love their company, how much we really LOVE them.
or maybe, that’s just me.
maybe i have become SO selfish a person that i didnt even notice hurting the people i love and cared about. maybe i got so used of getting what i want that i forget to notice the needs of the people that cared for me. maybe i have become a person so bad that even the people who loved me cant stand to be with me anymore.
many told me that i am a smart person. that i am really above average when it comes to intellectuality. but i feel so stupid right now. i feel that i am the most stupid person alive, because i didnt come to realize and appreciate the things that matter most, or atleast for me.
and now i am left alone. things i’ve done are coming back at me. i have hurt the person i love, and now she’s hurting me back (though i know, she doesnt want to). i have been hard on her, and she’s hitting me hard right back. i have left her when she needed me most, and now she left me when i have realized that she’s the one i really need.
what goes around, comes around.
karma.
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